summer

Goodbye by Alistair Chong

Shimmering sunshine on endless seas
Ebb and flow of the endless tide
The lazy haze and salt swept breeze
For now till then waving goodbye

Goodbye Summer
I'll always miss you

Moon painted nights under starry skies
Glaring sun and burning sand
Myriad sunsets and warm sunrise
Have come and past, slipped through my hands

Goodbye Summer
I'll always miss you

The times we had I'll never regret
Times I'll always remember
Are gone for now 'til we forget
But you'll be back next December

Goodbye Summer
I'll always miss you

Autumn, winter, spring
In my life they play a part
But here I'll be waiting
For you're always in my heart

beat

Beat by Alistair Chong

To the world he is oblivious
Try calling him back it's hopeless
'Cause to the music he is lost
First beat off the line got crossed
He was gone the second it started
The beat to him liberty imparted
Closing his eyes, fingers he taps
Walking in step to the snare's claps
He's off, gone in the wind
To himself, the beat he's moving
And to him it's freedom

Dance, dance, dance
Feel the music in your heart
Dance, dance, dance
Feel it the moment it starts
Dance, dace, dance
Let yourself go free
Dance, dance, dance
Feel the freeing liberty

To the tune he's rocking now
To the crash he's getting down
In his soul is power's call
In the song is the rise the fall
The dance and track are one with he
Flows through fleeting harmony
The rising tempo he climbs
Spellbound in himself he finds
He's off, gone in the wind
To himself, the beat he's moving
And to him it's freedom

Dance, dance, dance
Feel the music in your heart
Dance, dance, dance
Feel it the moment it starts
Dance, dace, dance
Let yourself go free
Dance, dance, dance
Feel the freeing liberty

Every step, every sound
Every move in the rhyme
Every song spellbound
Everywhere, every time

turning time

remind by Alistair Chong

today the sun reveals her face
the clouds and beauty interlaced
her smile warms me my soul secured
my trust and heart by her procured
today the clouds lightly they drift
through my thoughts and life they sift
aware of less of me than known
yet caring to darkness i have shown
today the wind blows slightly breeze
my burden, hurt, everything flees
to me the world is life and love
because it's you they remind me of

the earth it lives it breathes
every wonder every sight to view
punctures my heart reminds me
the perfection of beauty in you

tonight the moon it softly settles
its place in my heart it nestles
it gently searches in the darkness
pulls me tenderly to the surface
tonight the stars the sky they grace
painting perfection's flawless face
through my heart shadows of tears
sear me as i to blackness endear
tonight the world it slowly turns
to that thought inside i burn
to me these sights are broken love
because it's you they remind me of

the earth it lives it breathes
every wonder every sight to view
punctures my heart reminds me
the perfection of beauty in you

if only time would stop
let time's ticking rhyme to drop
to the world, life and you i'd cease
only then would my soul be at peace

the earth it lives it breathes
every wonder every sight to view
punctures my heart reminds me
the perfection of beauty in you

for now

anaesthetic by Alistair Chong

when i feel nothing
i don't mind
stop the gears crushing
myself up inside
when i've severed
my soul and heart
sometimes it's better
than crumbling apart

left on the shelf
for now i'm spent
numb to myself
i am content

each other they ignore
mind, heart for now mutual
the world simpler to explore
to view through eyes neutral
too tried, empty to feel
i am left to others
saving me from the real
i barely care to bother

left on the shelf
for now i'm spent
numb to myself
i am content

is it safer this way
i don't want to hurt again
but to do so is feeling
my heartbeat my soul breathe

cue

The Play by Alistair Chong

through the rain misted window i stare
wondering how today will fare
to my heart begin to ignore
deceiving me i've risen from the floor
anaesthetise my mind to my soul
breathe my last as me as cameras roll
from the ugliest pain of reality i segue
blind myself to actuality and begin the play

this plot of mine
has gone so wrong
with ugly lines
and discordant songs
this stage to me
has lost its lights
no glamour to see
in this life

i join in the joyful flurry and fluster
merge from dull and dead into lustre
maintain myself concealing camouflage
participate in the hazy mirage
but i begin to enjoy this act
somehow leaves me for a while intact
this a temporary fix i comprehend
but i'll live this short chapter's end

this plot of mine
has gone so wrong
with ugly lines
and discordant songs
this stage to me
has lost its lights
no glamour to see
in this life

was this my story
meant to turn so awry
cruelest twists and turns
my very soul it churns
but i just follow on
pursue tomorrow's song
pray that the next act turns out to be
a story of the better part of me

honesty

Sometimes by Alistair Chong

sometimes it hurts so much
the pain i can't describe
sometimes it hurts so much
the words i fight to find
sometimes it hurts so much
i barely survive as days pass
sometimes it hurts so much
it seems that i
failed from the start

but sometimes
when i go down
it feels like forever
thrown to the ground
seems like i'll never
pick myself up again
too shattered even to cry
or even hope for the end
just that i'd turn away and die

sometimes it hurts so much
i can't look into your eyes
sometimes it hurts so much
i've lost my disguise
sometimes it hurts so much
nights are torn to weeks
sometimes it hurts so much
angels fall
and torment me in my sleep

but sometimes
when i go down
it feels like forever
thrown to the ground
seems like i'll never
pick myself up again
too shattered even to cry
or even hope for the end
just that i'd turn away and die

sometimes it hurts so much
even gray loses colour
sometimes it hurts so much
what i see doesn't matter
sometimes it hurts so much
nothing resembles to recognise
but sometimes it hurts so much
falling through the cracks
i cry out for someone to realise

where are you
when i need you most

This week's song of note

When I Go Down by Relient K

I'll tell you flat out
It hurts so much to think of this
So from my thoughts I will exclude
The very thing that
I hate more than everything is
The way I'm powerless
To dictate my own moods

I've thrown away
So many things that could've been much more
And I just pray
My problems go away if they're ignored
But that's not the way it works
No that's not the way it works

When I go down
I go down hard
And I take everything I've learned
And teach myself some disregard
When I go down
It hurts to hit the bottom
And of the things that got me there
I think, if only I had fought them

If and when I can
Clear myself of this clouded mind
I'll watch myself settle down
Into a place where
Peace can search me out and find
That I'm so ready to be found

I've thrown away
The hope I had in friendships
I've thrown away
So many things that could have been much more
I've thrown away
The secret to find an end to this
And I just pray
My problems go away if they're ignored
But that's not the way it works
No that's not the way it works

Any control I thought I had just slips right through my hands
While my ever-present conscience shakes its head and reprimands me
Reprimands me
Then and there
I confess
I'll blame all this on my selfishness
Yet you love me
And that consumes me
And I'll stand up again
And do so willingly

You give me hope, and hope it gives me life
You touch my heavy heart, and when you do you make it light
As I exhale I hear your voice
And I answer you, though I hardly make a noise
And from my lips the words I choose to say
Seem pathetic, but it's fallen man's praise
Because I love you
Oh God, I love you
And life is now worth living
If only because of you
And when they say that I'm dead and gone
It won't be further from the truth

When I go down
I lift my eyes to you
I won't look very far
Cause you'll be there
With open arms
To lift me up again
To lift me up again

This Week's Playlist
Collision Course (Album)-Jay Z and Linkin Park
The Rising Tied (Album)- Fort Minor
Hybrid Theory (Album)- Linkin Park
Meteora (Album)- Linkin Park
Minutes to Midnight (Album)- Linkin Park
Reanimation (Album)- Linkin Park
When I Go Down- Relient K

some perspective

Brothers and Sisters by Alistair Chong

I met an old man yesterday he was wise in a homeless kinda way
He'd never say about the pain he'd seen but pray and appreciate the shelter he's in
Because there's a girl he knows she hangs around more homeless bros
Who feel it when the rain falls and wind blows no roof or walls just some clothes
But she doesn't show she's meek cause it's been like this every week
And maybe if she's lucky it won't start raining, but she won't lift her hopes
Because she's known betraying, she's been bashed from her home
And through the bruises she's praying that someone will just show
Some mercy and drop a damn coin into her hand just so she can
Buy some booze so she'd just lose herself from the cuts and jars
Forget about her scars or maybe just buy some shoes
'Cause her feet are getting blue and winter's coming fast

But we just take it in
Walk through what we've seen
Turn away and keep on walking
When the city's starving

Most of the time she was smiling, I thought she'd be crying
But she said it ain't nothing compared to some kids she'd heard of
When she was better off before all this street stuff
They never seen dad or mum they ain't even got a street to sleep on
It's just dirt and sand, without food in their hands just bits of corn
They've seen their sister die and stayed for a week by her side
They don't know they've got it too, but they know they can't pull through
Because no one ever pulls up and sees they've gotta help the weak
Stop complaining and trying to seek for themselves and lift your head
See there's a kid without a bed or parents, without luck or someone to care for them
A kid who's never seen someone in his family survive past the age of five
Doesn't even think he'll be alive by the next July
But the world keeps on walking and averts its gaze, selfish and apathetic continues its day
In a week I'll hear that kid's dead, and no one will have heard of it
God, it's so pathetic, makes me sick to the head

But we just take it in
Walk through what we've seen
Turn away and keep on walking
When the world is starving

Lift your head and see past yourself
See past your job your cars, your bed your shelter
See past your house your clothes, your problems your woes
And give a kid some shoes give her some bread
Get him some help or soon they'll all be dead
You find disgust in them you misunderstand them
You try and forget them, you reprimand them
But to them you're the same, you make him sick
Make her disgusted, get them pissed
So take a harder look at these guys so lonely
They're your sister, brother, your homies
How much longer can you keep this up?

But we just take it in
Walk through what we've seen
Turn away and keep on walking
When our brothers are starving

you

hopeless by Alistair Chong

You've got no idea
What you're doing to me
You hold my hand
Melt me in so cluelessly
You face me with those eyes
But you don't see me die inside

To me
You are
Hopeless
To me
You are
Everything
And that's why it's burning me up

You smile my way
My eyes can't turn
And you laugh
My heartbeat burns
But then you turn away from me
And cut down my fantasy

To me
You are
Hopeless
To me
You are
Everything
And that's why it's burning me up

To me
You are
Hopeless
To me
You are
Everything
And that's why it's burning me up

ebb and flow

Light by Alistair Chong

Nothing but the sea beyond
The sea and ever glowing sun
Nothing but you and I
You and I and the never ending sky
Day dies down and gentle breeze
Catches my throat as I see
You so surreal under sunset
My heart stops in your silhouette

The way the crimson backdrop fades
The way your hair is caught in the wind
The way your shadow falls on your face
What it does to me within
Is unexplainable

Nothing but flowing ocean
The sparkle of ebbing tide
Nothing but the wisp of clouds frozen
Drifting so carefree through time
Soft moonshine drifts as the clouds part
Palest light and truest beauty meet
But the shadows hide the tears of my heart
With every single beat

The way the darkness fades
The way your hair is caught in the wind
The way the moon caresses your face
What it does to me within
Is unexplainable

I wish this was ever lasting
This moment between us two
Because my heart is bursting
Just watching you
I can't describe it

sing

The Song by Alistair Chong

it hasn't been long
but already I've gone
lost in nothingness
let myself drown in it
because i can hear her soul
as she plays the song
and it's hurting

enter the start
the forlorn piano
tugs at my heart
with every note
the simple line
recites its eulogy
tormented tears intertwined
into the melody
enter the beat
the broken bass
simple in the heat
of tattered days
it barely remains
pale, weak yet shown
in unwavering trace
pulse becomes my own

it hasn't been long
but already I've gone
lost in nothingness
let myself drown in it
because i can hear her soul
as she plays the song
and it's hurting

enter her
the softest cry
lighter than a feather
breaks me up inside
sing the tune
melts into harmony
the dark side of the moon
shows her face to me
enter her words
saturated in pain
shattered under curse
recalls past chains
and she just
tears me with her verse

it hasn't been long
but already I've gone
lost in nothingness
let myself drown in it
because i can hear her soul
as she plays the song
and it's hurting

sing, sing your soul
let healing take its toll
as the song fades away
you rise the sun today
and feel the light
feel the light

piece of mind.

Piss Off by Alistair Chong

I don't want to see that again.
You wear that mask of yours,
Pretend to be her closest friend.
But in the end just want to defend
Your face, say that you were there.
Your pathetic practised prose of verse
Laced with sickly sweet words
Accompanies selfishly soft eyes.
But all I see is a slim and shallow disguise.

Get out of her face.
Leave her to be.
All she needs is herself to see
That time is all she needs.
Give up on your disgrace.
One day she'll see your who,
But now is when I'm saving her from you.
So just step back and run before you get smashed through.

Keep your head out of the hole
No one wants your console.
Keep your hands off our backs
Before they're cracked and broken
After everyone's woken and seen past your tacts.
Because in the end, we'll see your within
Worse than the most evil sin

Get out of her face
Leave her to be
All she needs is herself to see
That time is all she needs
Give up on your disgrace
One day she'll see your who
But now is when I'm saving her from you
So just step back and run before you get smashed through

Run, run, run.
I'm sick to the core
Don't want to hear you anymore
Because friends watch for friends
And you aren't one of them.


On a different note and in a different key,


Let Go by Alistair Chong

4 a.m. morning clock screams
Urgent with every ring
I open my weary eyes
and ready myself for today's tries
Trudge with my head low
Feel the pavement passing as I go
Into the blur of today's whirlwind
Knowing today will be the same as it's always been
And I realise the reality
Of today's monotony
With today being the same
So I anticipate tomorrow with a smile today

Tomorrow
I wake up to lie still
Watch the sunrise over water
Walk down the beach until
I get beyond the border
Tomorrow
I'm lying back with you
As we watch the clouds drift by
Let the sunshine wash us through
Just you and I

Sometimes it seems you are lost
Inside the cyclic chaos
You slip through my mind
As coiled frantic unwinds
It eats at me with guilt
That it seems my mind is filled
With now for the future
And edges you away from the picture
So I know that tomorrow the sun will shine
And you are all I'll have to pass the time

Tomorrow
I wake up to lie still
Watch the sunrise over water
Walk down the beach until
I get beyond the border
Tomorrow
I'm lying back with you
As we watch the clouds drift by
Let the sunshine wash us through
Just you and I

We'll see the sun rise and fall
Hear the ocean's timeless call
Let time slip through our fingers
Letting ourselves to linger
Give up on all I've toiled with
Because you're being is worth it.

take the time

laugh and cry, but laugh more by Alistair Chong

Smile, say cheese
Because I'm waiting to freeze
Ourselves into infinity
This moment between you and me
Laugh and dance
Or take the chance
To look away from the lens
Be lost in your friend

Find yourself in the photo
Bring it with you
Because when today is tomorrow
Yesterdays will be few
But we'll laugh and cry
As we look back through history
Know we were right
To save ourselves from the mystery

Flick through the past
Wonder at how fast
We've flown through the days
Been lost in the haze
And smile at our youth
Our innocence in the truth
And thank God that that day
We stopped time, tucked it away

Find yourself in the photo
Bring it with you
Because when today is tomorrow
Yesterdays will be few
But we'll laugh and cry
As we look back through history
Know we were right
To save ourselves from the mystery

Get lost with me
As the shutter clicks into forever
Because it's so good to see
Us so sweet together

where are you?

raining by Alistair Chong

you stand inside
you are still
dry from the rain
warm from the chill
your ears are deafened
shut away from me
oblivious to the wind
muted to the icy jawed scream

it never broke me so much
to be here outside
but today is different
today i've been tried
today my bones are shattered
my spirit's battered
and i never thought
i'd need you to hold my hand
and whisper to me
those words
but you won't dare look
not even a flicker

i stand outside
numb to the core
broken by the hail
i can't move anymore
all i can do
is let the acid in the rain
lick my battered shell
and hope you might glance my way

it never broke me so much
to be here outside
but today is different
today i've been tried
today my bones are shattered
my spirit's battered
and i never thought
i'd need you to hold my hand
and whisper to me
those words
but you won't dare look
not even a flicker

wouldn't you care to come outside
taste the cyclone in your blood
or open the door
hear the wind in your heart
or come to the window
and pretend to know who i am
i'm outside crying for you
and nothing
is all i can do

i lie here alone.

one

the dance by Alistair Chong

together
alone in the melody
candlelight
washes over the steps
blanketed
in the sweet harmony
hold me like this
until forever's death

don't voice a word
don't move away
i hear our heartbeats in one
whispering what we already say
in the intimacy
of our dance

disoriented
in your deepest eyes
understanding
the child beneath the guise
i'm at home
in your ethereal touch
hold me like this
until time begins its march

don't voice a word
don't move away
i hear our heartbeats in one
whispering what we already say
in the intimacy
of our dance

rest myself on your shoulder
you on mine
together
we are each other
and we dance

feel

we by Alistair Chong
happiness
there's tension in the twinkle
frowns in the wrinkles
ashes in the sparkle
in the emptiness of eyes
i see the grimace in the grin
the stab in the tricks
i feel the air
in the clap of trembling hands
and it's been shattered

everyone's happy
sick with the cancer
of the mirage of glad
of living in the grin and crumbling to sand within
everyone's happy
desperate to be sad
to fall into oblivion, wilt in the rain
to break down, fall apart, to cry on the street
and let the world see

happiness
there's a slack in the dance
a brokenness in the celebration
a fall in the crest
a defeat in the joy
i can hear the tremor in her laugh
the defeat in joy
the chasm in his shout
there's death in the song
muted silence as we sing along
linking in the hurt never known

everyone's happy
sick with the cancer
of the mirage of glad
of living in the grin and crumbling to sand within
everyone's happy
desperate to be sad
to fall into oblivion, wilt in the rain
to break down, fall apart, to cry on the street
and let the world see

i find tears in the smile
and happiness in tears

angels and demons

beyond repair by Alistair Chong

Hurricanes twist my fragile mind
Ripping my heart through waking nights
Leaving the barren heath behind.
Let me rebuild for the wake of tomorrow.

Tomorrow warring demons burn me down
Inside the half built sanctuary,
Leaving no sincerity for the broken child
Cowering in the corner pleading for inexistant mercy.

Burning to ash, shattered and scattered upon the wind
I pick myself up again
Walk for miles to find just one piece
Begin to build and wait for the storm tomorrow.

I'm less than half the man yesterday.

welcome

Spare the Time by Needtobreathe

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