pulse.


"Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it, like my heart is just going to cave in."
-Ricky Fitts, American Beauty

30.9.08

bond

chill by Alistair Chong

let me sit here
lean against this wall
keeping me secure
while i strum the strings and all
while they let me smile.

29.9.08

just let me

speed by Alistair Chong

put the pedal to the floor
to let go of some of this
aggravation and hate
into somewhere else
give me danger
let me feel the fire
licking at this door


Hello Again by Lostprophets


Hello again, why so old?
Wasn't time your friend? I must be told
Hello again, it seems too long
Since we last met, how has it gone?

Don't accept the blame, I would not complain,
'Cause I'm sure it wasn't your own fault
That you never made it out your vault
Just lock the door, and find some time to scream
To scream again.

Just say when
And you'll stop the pain of your life,
Bring it to an end.
Just say when
And you could make amends
Just say hello, say hello again.

Hello again, it's not that hard.
No dead ends, even with the scars

Don't accept the blame, I would, I would not complain,
'Cause I'm sure it wasn't your own fault
That you never made it out your vault
Just lock the door, and find some time to scream

Just say when
And you'll stop the pain of your life,
Bring it to an end.
Just say when and you could make amends
Just say hello, say hello again.

You have no home, you lost your throne, where has it gone?
Well it could all come back,
But you're being led by the walking dead,
You stumble and you cracked the ground,
You're pinned down.

Just say when
You could stop the pain,
Just say when,
And you could make amends
Just say hello, say hello again,

Hello again
Hello again
Hello again
Hello again
Hello again

It's not the end if you just say hello again.

28.9.08

gardens and weather

bloody bricks by Alistair Chong

this frustration
breaks him up inside
nothing goes the right way
he gave everything and tried
and now it's crumbling

fought hard
clawed through
tore for
the breakthrough
broken hands
torn up dreams
broken legs
broken glass beneath his feet
and all he can do is scream

breaking up
he can't find air
thought of a thousand ways
to end the bloodshot day
because it's just too much

fought hard
clawed through
tore for
the breakthrough
broken hands
torn up dreams
broken legs
broken glass beneath his feet
and all he can do is scream

running into a wall
the scars tattoo it all
running into a wall
the scars tattoo it all

fought hard
clawed through
tore for
the breakthrough
broken hands
torn up dreams
broken legs
broken glass beneath his feet
and all he can do is scream

27.9.08

razor wire

you can... by Alistair Chong

you can hit the road
or you can dream of days
or you can talk of ways
we'd end up alone
but the hardest part
is the choice.


We Could Run Away by Needtobreathe

Everything stops as we look towards the clock
It feels like we’re moving backwards
It’s easy to find potential in before
But we look the same in the afters

Could we wait long enough to bide my time
Could we stay and say enough to change my mind

We could run away
Maybe we could change
Get back on our feet and then
Maybe make it home again
We could run away
Be on our own again
Maybe in the twilight
We can break out
Buy ourselves a Cadillac
Never turn around
We could run away
Be on our own again

We could stay here where things became unclear
Fighting what’s left of the right way
But everyone hates the chances that we waste
Under the light of the new day

Could we wait long enough to bide my time
Could we stay and say enough to change my mind

We could run away
Maybe we could change
Get back on our feet and then
Maybe make it home again
We could run away
Be on our own again
Maybe in the twilight
We can break out
Buy ourselves a Cadillac
Never turn around
We could run away
Be on our own again

26.9.08

spring with a hint of

sun shine days by Alistair Chong

here comes the sun
cheering everyone
give me some fun
in the freaking sun.

25.9.08

thursday

decisions by Alistair Chong

thursday, thursday
still thinking of what to
it's a bit crazy to appear
thursday, thursday
where is this heading
the road is hazy beyond here
thursday, thursday
let's wait for friday
and then the weekend
thursday, thursday
let's just wait forever
for the talk to end

24.9.08

scenarios

words by Alistair Chong

4 am hardly works
but this time it might
letting go of holding on
to what it feels like
i still don't know
what is right
but we'll wait and see
need more nights.

23.9.08

come on...

hit the road by Alistair Chong

well it's time to come home
the wheels on the freeway
rumble beneath my feet
i'm going the wrong way
was i meant to take this street?
u-turn and take me out

22.9.08

two lefts track eleven

getting into by Alistair Chong

i don't know what i'm doing
with these feelings i feel
or what you've done
to make these seem so real
it's confusing and loses me
i know you didn't mean to
but its strange 'cause it stirs
up in me something for you

21.9.08

service

wax on the table by Alistair Chong

where's the fire, the heat gone
the passion inside to be sent
to worship You in abandon
to fail to comprehend
to fall on my knees
and lift up my eyes
hear Your whisper on the breeze
see your glory fill the skies?


Made To Love by TobyMac

The dream is fading, now I'm staring at the door
I know its over 'cause my feet have hit the cold floor
Check my reflection, I ain't feelin' what I see
It's no mystery
Whatever happened to a passion I could live for
What became of the flame that made me feel more
And when did I forget

That I was made to love You
I was made to find You
I was made just for You
Made to adore You
I was made to love
And be loved by You
You were here before me
You were waiting on me
And You said you'd keep me
Never would you leave me
I was made to love
And be loved by You

The dream's alive with my eyes opened wide
Back in the ring you've got me swinging for the grand prize
I feel the haters spittin' vapors on my dreams
But I still believe
I'm reachin' out, reachin' up, reachin' over
I feel a breeze cover me called Jehovah
And Daddy I'm on my way
'Cause I was made to love

I was made to love You
I was made to find You
I was made just for You
Made to adore You
I was made to love
And be loved by You
You were here before me
You were waiting on me
And You said you'd keep me
Never would You leave me
I was made to love
And be loved by You

I was made to love You
I was made just for You
Made to adore You
I was made to love
And be loved by You
You were here before me
You were waiting on me
And You said you'd keep me
Never would You leave me
I was made to love
And be loved by You

Anything I would give up for You
Everything, I'd give it all away
Anything I would give up for You
Everything, I'd give it all away
Anything I would give up for You
Everything, I'd give it, I'd give it all away

20.9.08

bro

out of tens by Alistair Chong

have a good one
good times to come
and life filled days
that you'll find your way
looking twenty on
don't forget the twenty gone
and what you've seen
where you've been
but over and above
those you love.
happy birthday

19.9.08

young performer's

raise a by Alistair Chong

hey now max
can you see ahead
look down the tracks
into the wake of those who led

hey now max
you've got this far
you broke your back
searching for buried stars

hey now max
raise a glass
heres to you
and to the future

18.9.08

cover off the table

clean or what by Alistair Chong

i'm taking this board i've scrawled on

only words and wishes i have seen

these broken windows i've crawled on

i'm wiping it clean


this frustration and swirling tide

threatened my sanity and what i held

it hurt my heart to keep it all inside
drowned me out when i tried to tell


it's easier said than done
when i'm not around to breathe it in
but i'll try, back to dot point one

i'll take a breath, time to begin.


no guarantees.

time will tell.



Here We Are
by Breaking Benjamin

Sing it for me,

I can't erase the
stupid things I say.
You're better than me,

I struggle just to find a better way.


So here we are, fighting and trying to hide the scars.

I'll be home tonight, take a breath and softly say goodbye.
The lonely road, the one that I should try to walk alone.
I'll be home tonight, take a breath and softly say goodbye.


You wouldn't like me.

Keep moving on until forever ends.

Don't try to fight me.
The beauty queen has lost her crown again.

So here we are, fighting and trying to hide the scars.
I'll be home tonight, take a breath and softly say goodbye.
The lonely road, the one that I should try to walk alone.

I'll be home tonight, take a breath and softly say goodbye.

Goodbye.


So why are you so eager to betray?

Pick the pieces up, pick the pieces up.
So why are you the one that walks away?

Pick the pieces up, pick the pieces up, pick the pieces up.


Oh.

So here we are, fighting and trying to hide the scars.

I'll be home tonight, take a breath and softly say goodbye.

The lonely road, the one that I should try to walk alone.
I'll be home tonight, take a breath and softly say goodbye.

Just take a breath and softly say goodbye.


Promise of a Lifetime by Kutless

I have fallen to my knees
As I sing a lullaby of pain
I'm feeling broken in my melody
As I sing to help the tears go away
Then I remember the pledge you made to me

I know you're always there
To hear my every prayer inside I'm clinging to
The promise of a lifetime
I hear the words you say
To never walk away from me and leave behind
The promise of a lifetime

Will you help me fall apart
Pick me up, take me in your arms
Find my way back from the storm
And you show me how to grow through the change
I still remember the pledge you made to me

I know you're always there
To hear my every prayer inside I'm clinging to
The promise of a lifetime
I hear the words you say
To never walk away from me and leave behind
The promise of a lifetime

I am holding on to the hope I have inside
With you I will stay through every day
Putting my understanding aside
I am comforted

To know you're always there
To hear my every prayer inside I'm clinging to
The promise of a lifetime
I hear the words you say
To never walk away from me and leave behind
The promise of a lifetime

I know you're always there
To hear my every prayer inside I'm clinging to
The promise of a lifetime
Looking back at me
I know that you can see my heart is open to
The promise of a lifetime

17.9.08

origins

listening by Alistair Chong

i put the CD in
the music plays
i sit at my desk
my head in a haze

i find a glass
a murky reminder
of days gone past
at the bottom is last night's wine

God, my head hurts
these dreams plague my peace
hungover from emotion
just leave me, leave me please.

16.9.08

see through lips

secrets by Alistair Chong

i don't know
where this train is going
which one did i take
down the drain it's washing

because there just might be
one more just for kicks
'cause it's so damn funny
to feel like this

15.9.08

treading softly

fun by Alistair Chong

i am a smile
i seep into your eyes
i light up her day
and slightly curve your lips
light his darkened way.

i am a laugh
i play upon your lips
i rush through the wind
and echo through your mind
rising up from within.

i am happiness
living in everyone
finding my home inside
if you find nothing helps
just let me outside.

14.9.08

named before?

sunlight by Alistair Chong

staring into the sun
her fingers caress my skin
warmth and life
begins to fill me in
she hangs in the sky
intent, unkempt and wild
i breathe as the world goes by
it's all i can do but smile.

13.9.08

aderian

you lost the by Alistair Chong

say my name
call me out
you're drawing me from my shell

teasing, trying
hoping i've left out

memories of past times i fell
.

watching, waiting
so i lift my head
holding out for a reply

poised and ready

to strike me dead

i fall for it just one more time.

nothing.

12.9.08

summertime

waiting for you by Alistair Chong

sun in my skin
water through my feet
sand beneath me
i'm summersick
road trip again
stereo on full
across the coast
i'm summersick

11.9.08

3 weeks

holidays by Alistair Chong

finally the break is here
to find some time
and make it clear
to wake after dawn
and to sleep when morning comes.

10.9.08

choreo what?

bring it on by Alistair Chong

we don't have what you do
fancy lights and sound system
we don't have shiny mirrors or wooden floors
but we don't need them
we'll take you with what we've got
'cause you don't have any of it.
give us the beat
and we'll take you down
beneath our feet
we'll take this town
you know we'll smash you.

9.9.08

frustration

fragility by Alistair Chong

built it up to burn it down
construction works for a ghost town
i swear it never had a point
always lands the wrong side of the coin
the truth it's hardly right
might as well go the other way.

8.9.08

nearly

looking forward to by Alistair Chong

monday monday
write the days off the wall
'til sunday sunday
didn't get rest at all
give me a holiday
and let me wake to the afternoon

7.9.08

days

legacy by Alistair Chong

to be something better
that they'd look up to
to be the strength and tower
to be strong for them
is what i look to be
who i aim for
to begin a legacy.

6.9.08

noxious

righteous son of by Alistair Chong

making the law but breaking it
talk of sincere but faking it
the judge turns blind eyes
to the life behind his disguise
calling shots like he's the one
who's lived through whats dusted and done
believes he knows what it's like
when someone tears down your life
he passes on the judgment
and she can't stand one more.

5.9.08

titles

besides by Alistair Chong

it's a funny feeling
when you look into her eyes
it's a funny feeling
like vertigo in the skies
it's a cloudy high
as the ground goes by
and to you begins to rise
before you land.

4.9.08

upon the rock

disorient by Alistair Chong

i wake and i am lost
weren't you here before
i thought i'd broken and crossed
thought you'd cleared the floor

i thought we'd lifted our eyes
stepped across the water
mutual, uncompromised
it was all i'd ever thought of

i'll tell you all about it
when we see

3.9.08

foundation

heat relief by Alistair Chong

step into the night
feel the coldness tight
see the steps they take
to follow life's wake
listen to the life and hustle
feel the vibrant living bustle

2.9.08

internal blood

you make me by Alistair Chong

this trembling withing leaves me awake
the numbness through the warmth it breaks
cold fingertips
and pale skin
are the signs showing of within
who am i when you're not here?
it's evident is it ever clear?
how did i feel before it ever happened
before feeling this way?

1.9.08

summer rain

the past is memory by Alistair Chong

words from past days
and lines from the smoky haze
come up again
and pull me back in time
the song from bygone years
and lyrics of shadowed tears
come up and then
leave these memories to die


Kill The Messenger by Jack's Mannequin

Oh my God, this hurts like hell
I had that dream again
Where I was lost for good in outer space
Tell me Doctor how to shake,
Awake a nightmare
That is only worse when I am sleeping

Kill the messenger
I swear it's not me
It's just someone I used to know
And get to church 'cause you're a good girl
And I never told you that
And all I need from you
Could be the thing that
Leaves us both up here forever
I'm gonna send a little rain your way
I'm gonna send a little rain

It's not so easy caving in
I walked by your apartment twice today
When you were gone at work
And all the colours got so dim
It's not as cold out here
But come quick I am losing feeling

Kill the messenger
I swear it's not me
It's just someone I used to know
And get to church 'cause you're a good girl
And I never told you that
And all I need from you
Could be the thing that
Leaves us both up here forever
I'm gonna send a little rain your way
I'm gonna send a little rain

I'm gonna send a little
Rain to pour down on you
Rain that makes the flowers bloom
Rain to leave you all alone
That keeps eyelashes falling
And wishes washed away

Kill the messenger
I swear it's not me
It's just someone I used to know
And get to church 'cause you're a good girl
And I never told you that
And all I need from you
Could be the thing that
Leaves us both up here forever
I'm gonna send a little rain your way
I'm gonna send a little rain