pulse.


"Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it, like my heart is just going to cave in."
-Ricky Fitts, American Beauty

30.4.09

just

be happy by Alistair Chong

once again
people enjoying the end
smiles that have been worn
every day
for endless years
paint the room
a funny shade of calm

29.4.09

battle of the bands

dreams by Alistair Chong

hype
screams through the mic
sounds
in every line
here comes the music
show time.

28.4.09

one while

short term by Alistair Chong

i forget where i've been
streets i've seen
just keep going before
it's too late

27.4.09

just before

blanked by Alistair Chong

tongue tied again
i forget these words
slipped from my tongue
never past the tip
structures and plans
to be learned again

26.4.09

same old

rerun by Alistair Chong

i don't know
just another
come in walk out
through each motion
like it's all the same

25.4.09

back to one

don't by Alistair Chong

don't watch me
keep me in the dark
in a place i don't want to be
clawing and climbing
through sickness

24.4.09

the wrong picture

what i see by Alistair Chong

i am a piece
of the wrong puzzle
from the broken storm
found in the wrong box
trying to fit into
these rolling hills
out of place

23.4.09

where do i go

night night by Alistair Chong

some nights
awake
i draw this mural
on the ceiling
sick and torn
broken felt feelings
if i could change
would i even try
what if i could slide
out from the living of days

22.4.09

sounds of cold

metal by Alistair Chong

clink, clink
silence.
the sound of sound
breaking each void
like a drop in the night
dripping.

21.4.09

not long enough

back by Alistair Chong

another first day
another early morning
before they day is warm
before i want to
don't come back

20.4.09

running through

boulevards by Alistair Chong

beat settles down
and builds again
harmonies
on top of each other
riff between riff
and through all this
these words i sing
ringing true
together we create.

19.4.09

sole

ties to me by Alistair Chong

disconnected
from this world
feels like
what i thought was there
never was
i am one again
and i can see
that sometimes
i just don't belong

18.4.09

pure love

only worship by Alistair Chong

spirit fall
and break me up
rearrange the pieces
in my room
use me as your hands
feet and words
i'm crying out
to something more
than a high

17.4.09

free flow

You find me by Alistair Chong

everything
broken inside
i tried to hide
under the carpet
but its torn
these remains
i can't hold anymore
so here is the letting go
let something in me overflow
i never felt this love
and i'm still searching for it
in my Lord

16.4.09

like Jesus

it was all for love by Alistair Chong

leaving the building
i'm here to love
nothing else
on this earth to share
your broken story
your twisted endings
messsed up starts
here for you.

15.4.09

empowered

to You by Alistair Chong

sometimes
here it feels the worst
alone and breaking
where is this family
until i burst
but i'll turn to You
sometimes i can't feel
what You say is there

14.4.09

just want

these hours by Alistair Chong

calling out
to You
calling out
again
i've failed
over and over
break me
for what breaks You

13.4.09

conference

one 09 by Alistair Chong

here to shake the planet
live in us
we cry
saturated and content
secure in You

12.4.09

saving grace

risen by Alistair Chong

tomb stone gone
pushed away
from death
here He comes
with glory and life in His breath
risen.

The Anthem by Planetshakers

Hallelujah, You have won the victory
Hallelujah, You have won it all for me
Death could not hold You down
You are the risen king
Seated in majesty
You are the risen king

11.4.09

with everything

how it should by Alistair Chong

each string
ringing through
over me
and through me
this is how it's meant to be
music in my head
music all around
all night
playing as one

10.4.09

Good Friday

Good Friday by Alistair Chong

friday
Jesus Christ
hanging on a cross
blood in the dirt
divine blood
innocent
carries our shame
completely broken
for you
for me

9.4.09

surround me

here comes by Alistair Chong

waiting for hours to crawl
on their knees
i'm waiting for something to happen
please
i want to surrender
but my white flag
white no more

8.4.09

stare

broken tonight by Alistair Chong

light off
open eyes
no more sleep.
ceiling drawings
in my mind
dark from deep.
street lights
seeping in
faintly white.
music
broken in sound
broken tonight.

7.4.09

surrounds

fear by Alistair Chong

only one
i am only one
six billion can fill this world
but i am only one
faces surround me
but still this space

6.4.09

what satisifies

real fun by Alistair Chong

the world sometimes
is empty
searching for more highs
always in vain
the wrong veins
they explore
i walk with them
and it's cold
breaking this mould

5.4.09

for you

surprising by Alistair Chong

waiting in wait
watching for the door to open
it's funny watching
those insecurities fall from you
and you laugh

4.4.09

arise

oppress by Alistair Chong

fight the fight
as it becomes darker and darker
this dying light
goodness grows sick
twisted and broken

3.4.09

leave me alone

stages by Alistair Chong

ending one part
left behind
for good
waiting to catch onto
something new
i don't want to be
broken and charred
a shattered jar
but the pieces
cut my hands
and remind

2.4.09

looking up

sick of by Alistair Chong

tire
tire out and dry
each step
footprints grow light
and fade away
fading words from a fading day
getting sick of
this pedestal you're on

1.4.09

april fools

fool by Alistair Chong

april fools
mindless and empty
happy in broken states
satisfaction i empty face
good with mediocrity
april fools
you got me good
too well
but i'm done
done here