pulse.


"Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it, like my heart is just going to cave in."
-Ricky Fitts, American Beauty

30.9.09

there's also

no bothering by Alistair Chong

alright to see
some faces i haven't seen
for some time
not so good the context
coming back to school
and the impending doom

29.9.09

coming soon enough

glass will show by Alistair Chong

not long until
coming to pass
are the windows to the future
a glimpse, a flash
of what i could expect
or find

28.9.09

i thought

things being useful by Alistair Chong

well another week
seems to leave no trace
of any significant path
at this rate
there seems like
no good end while it lasts

27.9.09

half or not

that kind of feeling by Alistair Chong

in a state of
barely being there
might be listening
but not for too long

26.9.09

NWE

fountains of by Alistair Chong

celebration
good feelings fill spaces
warms from the inside
and keeps the dark at bay
there's nothing more
in a friendship
than gold

25.9.09

instrumentation

ideologies by Alistair Chong

sometimes you don't always need
to have the keys
to open doors and gates
to enter the right place
it's all humanity

24.9.09

to change

who i want to be by Alistair Chong

drown myself in numbers
or find pages in history
opening the minds of the heartless
who do i want to be?
too many ways to go
not enough passion to know
someone take my hand
show me

23.9.09

BL

futures by Alistair Chong

on the screen
plays a part
inspiring me to be more
to be bigger than i am
to take a challenge
use my hands
be the best.

22.9.09

can't be

motivate by Alistair Chong

paper backs on wood
hard covers on the table
turning pages over
looking for some motivation
maybe not in this book

21.9.09

after

morning sight

aftermath
of lights and sound
buzzing up in my head
blurry eyes into sun filled skies

20.9.09

winston

brothers by Alistair Chong

i never chose you, i never wished a wish
i didn't do a thing
but here you are, twenty one strong
twenty one gone
what can i say, nothing other
than thanks for being my brother
you are here for me
God's gift
i cherish preciously

19.9.09

ginza

in the night by Alistair Chong

some nights
you know
you love your friends
they keep you on your feet
let you fly
but make sure you're grounded
life is good.

18.9.09

string


what you miss by Alistair Chong

there are lights that i am missing
sounds i'm running past
without so much as a glimpse
there are sights alighting
all of which won't last
but still, we look for them somewhere

17.9.09

faded dates

things you can't change by Alistair Chong

you can say anything
and anyone would forget
chasing forgotten things
in a world where we regret

16.9.09

memoir eyes

dreamery by Alistair Chong

words are easier to find
when memories unwind
and pick themselves out
of the ropes
entangled in my mind

15.9.09

you know i forget

limited always by Alistair Chong

i find that
we're finding more time
between waking hours
closing eyes
searching for super powers
in a different world

14.9.09

fool

yeah right by Alistair Chong

foolish thoughts
though they were right
always making resolutions
too far past the new year
and now they
break
break
break

13.9.09

infinity in my mind

seats by Alistair Chong

so where we sit
determines how we see
how we see
chooses the men in our minds
and talks inside my head

12.9.09

well that's truth

the wrong reason by Alistair Chong

alright, i get it
lights down
and suddenly the world is right
lights up suddenly we see again
it's all i can do
to keep me from crying out
frustration in these walls
bouncing off like a mine gone wrong

11.9.09

not this one round

extra time by Alistair Chong

so here it is
the start of days starting
when the sun is that much higher
than before
the days of finding dreams
just before the sun awakes
so i thought.
nothing like imagination i had

10.9.09

penning down

things i need by Alistair Chong

there's a place i need to go
but i can't
behind in my days
i'm lost in the past i possess
there's a place i need to talk
need to find myself there
but instead
paying what it cost

9.9.09

all but paper

towers we build by Alistair Chong

ending up near the end
but seems like the start again
funny how card towers
could take a thousand hours
and we take one breath
and watch it meet the end
that's all we are
paper buildings.

8.9.09

wheels will

over in by Alistair Chong

really knowing
where a cycle is going
round in circles
until the world.

7.9.09

forgetting where

soon enough by Alistair Chong

day one of seven
at midnight past eleven
won't be too long away
lights out five from now
counting each one aloud
she'll be here soon

6.9.09

really is

back pew thoughts by Alistair Chong

all too often
needing to find a different way
to say what i have
over and over
all too often
keeping it different
is all too the same
too bad

5.9.09

down where i'm not

up past the sun by Alistair Chong

so you see what this is
more than just eclipses
stars implode and all you want
is what you wat

4.9.09

six years strong

foundation day by Alistair Chong

the stage alight
i am on it and it is alive
this is who i am
performance starts
lights and sparks
these are what i am
born to be
in front of the sea
who i am
who i'm going to be
this end is only chapter one

3.9.09

what to say

speak by Alistair Chong

hard finding words
to say what i want
hard finding ways
to give it right

2.9.09

thinking about words

relieve by Alistair Chong

over the middle
not so hard
hoping it's downhill
easier than the start
just let it go

1.9.09

finding some

breathing room by Alistair Chong

something to read
getting over this mess
trying to plead
over the business
somewhere to breathe
somewhere to breathe
something to feed
my restlesness
nearly there