four leaf clover

cycle by Alistair Chong

the wheels on the bus go round and round
silent thoughts don't make a sound
of secret lives they have found
of love hurt and losing ground

the lines on the road go by and by
forever with the countryside
and i ask myself why
it's always like this inside

the song goes over and over
in my head like a four leaf clover
you search but seldom discover
what she believes beneath the cover

i turn to her again and again
to those lifelike times of when
we'd hold the time as it went
days with those moments i've spent

the wheels still they turn they turn
still the longing in my heart it burns
hurts so much how much i yearn
when will i ever learn?

typhoon

feed by Alistair Chong

feed the disbelief
where's she meant to be
find the rest again
in the darkest den
what's what now?

missing what

dusk and lights by Alistair Chong

friday night
lacking light
so i'll lie here
in the dark
leave these words
pull me apart
to pry me open
see these feelings
search and grope them
of who you are to me

besides

lonely wish by Alistair Chong

lying here alone
in memory's company
feelings full blown
this yearning comes from me
deep below
when there's long to go
more then ever
i wish you were here

finite numbers

generic by Alistair Chong

here goes
take a breath
fear flows
take a step
would you listen
to the rest
would you listen
this is the test

Autumn Leaves by Paolo Nutini

Autumn leaves under frozen soles
Hungry hands turning soft and old
My hero cried as we stood out there in the cold
Like these autumn leaves I don't have nothing to hold.

Handsome smiles wearing handsome shoes
Too young to say, though I swear he knew
And I hear him singing while he sits there in his chair
Now these autumn leaves float around everywhere.

And I look at you, and I see me
Making noise so restlessly
But now it's quiet and I can hear you saying
'My little fish don't cry, my little fish don't cry.'

Autumn leaves how faded now
That smile that I've lost, well I've found some how
Because you still live on in my fathers eyes
These autumn leaves
Oh these autumn leaves
Oh these autumn leaves are yours tonight.

medallion

what did you say by Alistair Chong

waiting room
hear her cough.
silence.
watching, waiting
trying, fating
herself with the rest

days on a wall

chalked by Alistair Chong

running out of room
to mark my words
no space on the wall
to mark the days
words barely speak
to anything.
anywhere

dulled

if you were by Alistair Chong

keep me safe
hold me up
keep me well

keep me awake
hold my head
keep me here

much of

where's rest by Alistair Chong

to fading consciousness
listen to the words
find the heart in this
in the words you just heard.

seventeen

wishes and better men by Alistair Chong

the words i read fill my heart
a thousand times in my head
am i really worthy?
the life i lead, is it set apart
valued by those words i've read?
i'll find the worthy.
so i'll overcome
and i'll reach further
and i'll search the One
so i'll make these words mean
what they do
what's past has been

thankyou.

would you really have me?
am i really yours?

healer

in our prayers by Alistair Chong

you've fallen
but it's not the end
behind these prison walls
you can build again
claw your way through the darkness
because there is the light
dawn always comes
it's strong and it's bright
sometimes they hate you
but i know you're alone
you've been alone in this from the start
it couldn't get worse.
be strong.

can only

what ifs by Alistair Chong

one can only dream
to toy with reality
one can only see
through eyes with clarity
one can only dream
to feel complete
in the one we seek
but it hurts to wake up
in the morning

What If You by Joshua Radin

What if you
Could wish me away
And what if you
Spoke those words today
I wonder if you'd miss me
When I'm gone
It's come to this, release me
I'll leave before the dawn

But for tonight
I'll stay here with you
Yes for tonight
I'll lay here with you
But when the sun
Hits your eyes
Through your window
There'll be nothing you can do

What if you
Could hear this song
What if I
Felt like I belong
I might not be leaving
Oh so soon
Began the night believing
I loved you in the moonlight

But for tonight
I'll stay here with you
Yes for tonight
I'll lay here with you
But when the sun
Hits your eyes
Through your window
There'll be nothing you can do

I could have treated you better
Better than this
When I'm gone this song is your letter
Can't stay in one place

So for tonight
I'll stay here with you
Yes for tonight
I'll lay here with you
But when the sun
Hits your eyes
Through your window
There'll be nothing you can do

pulsate

focus by Alistair Chong

hopes and dreams
carried on your shoulders
spur you on and forwards
to go further
to go faster
to be the best.

sacrifice to inspire

what you by Alistair Chong

they sit on my head
drifting through my senses
those words you said
i don't know where to send this
kept in my head
locked up beneath
is everything

Breathe Me by Sia

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's noone else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

alley

breathing streets by Alistair Chong

life flows through the streets
calling crying
falling flying
through endless times
we're just a part
of the way it breaths
we laugh with joy
we cry we grieve
take a step through these streets
and see through the night

famine

cold tiles by Alistair Chong

where are you
i can feel you in my pulse
i can smell the way you smell
i can hear your laughter behind
the shimmered wind
and i can see you everywhere
but i can't touch you.

red

reaching over by Alistair Chong

we fight and fall
struggle to keep
but still lose it all
aren't we so weak
we fight and fall.
but it's Your glory
the light and hope
of Your presence holy
we will stand once again.

reflex

pounding over by Alistair Chong

i can't swallow
the tension drys my mouth
and i break out in fear
where's this going?
i don't know
i can only hope
take a chance and grope
blindly for the answer

unequal

no help by Alistair Chong

mixed feelings are holding me in
where do i stop where do i begin
how am i supposed to cope
when i know there's more than just hope

do i let it go
or keep you close
it's hard i know
when you're here

is it right
or is it wrong
do i wrench it apart
i know the answer
but it's hard

than the valley could reach

like a by Alistair Chong

like a flame in the breeze
flickering faltering
do i know what i feel
or is it not worth everything?

like castles in the sand
do i feel the heat
the tremble in my hands
the feeling of a mountain peak?

it's more than that
it's a stone
a stone in my heart
weighing me down
and it's all i can do
to see you
to make the heavy light

it's a shuddering breath
stuttered, shaking
keeping me alive
all my self you're taking

it's the beat of my heart
pumping, thundering
the pulse reaches my head
and i never stop wondering

it's all of that
it's everything
kept in my heart
my will is gone to ground
and it's all i can do
to see you
in the fading light

come find me on a bridge
we'll find the sun when dawn bells are pealing
and watch the currents flow
as we find this feeling

shout forth

faded spark by Alistair Chong

catching upon ears
the sound seeps through the walls been built
and lights a fire within
inside the walls the darkness wilts
and your heart is left open
just for a moment.
but it tears at you from the inside.

With Everything by Hillsong

Open our eyes
To see the things that make your heart cry
To be the church that You would desire
Your light to be seen

Break down our pride
And all the walls we built up inside
Our earthly crowns and all our desires
We lay at Your feet

So let hope rise
And darkness tremble in Your holy light
That every eye would see
Jesus our God
Great and mighty to be praised

God of all days
Glorious in all of Your ways
The majesty, the wonder and grace
In the light of Your name

So let hope rise
And darkness tremble in Your holy light
That every eye would see
Jesus our God
Great and mighty to be praised

With everything
With everything
We will shout for Your glory
With everything
With everything
We will shout forth Your praise

With everything
With everything
We will shout for Your glory
With everything
With everything
We will shout forth Your praise

And our hearts will cry
Be glorified
We lift You high above all
For only You are king
With everything
We will shout forth Your praise

With everything
With everything
We will shout for Your glory
With everything
With everything
We will shout forth Your praise

find something

point in time by Alistair Chong

a moment to take back
a moment to understand
a moment to find tracks
to burn the final transit

a moment to see
a moment to catch
a moment between
to find the hopeful glimmer hatch

struggle for words

edging the knife by Alistair Chong

this torment inside
turmoil and festering heat
consumes from beneath
and rises beyond the sky
leaves my vision blurred
and pounds through my veins
struggling for control.
oh God, this is going to break me.

examine

collection by Alistair Chong

rain sinks
beneath the skin
rain seeps
and pervades the life within
blinds the light
and forecalls the night
numb hands and cold heart
are thrown to dust
as we wait.
i can't bring myself
to walk away.

activate

cramp by Alistair Chong

the rush to entertain
the hope and glimmer
is just too much
rather than feed the flame
it smothers the core

erased

mindless rhythm by Alistair Chong

slips behind
forgotten as the minute moves
the memory is all we had
and now it's gone
hidden behind
shrouds of days and months.

across the land

clarity by Alistair Chong

suck it up draw it in
love this air
marvel at the ice
filling your lungs
and be thankful
you can draw just one more

more than stories

discovery by Alistair Chong

the pen scratches the surface
calling out names and worlds
none has heard
searches out horrors and emptiness
and gives life to the dead
the pen scratches away, creates a sanctuary
and it's comforting.

moving stone

scarring flow by Alistair Chong

there again
beneath the apparent
clarity of ice
struggling to keep it breaking
and caving us all in
scrabbling at the sides
as we scream, falling into the void
to face torment you don't know
goes on below

the feelings

breaking the surface by Alistair Chong

threatening to rise again
like a broken childhood memory
reopening wounds
comes the darkness overwhelming
trying to fight or welcome
i don't know
but looming around
angry and frayed.

til it's beneath

decisions by Alistair Chong

just come away with me
back here
we'll steal away
and turn to each other
we'd talk
and i'd see your eyes
it's too much to take