growth

this is by Alistair Chong

this is the anticipation
i feel
of these things to come
everything i seek
is put after Your heart
and Your face
Father God you know these
things churning in my heart.
i lift it to you

blare

ticking down by Alistair Chong

through the night
we live
we don't need it
waiting in anticipation
we'll see
what comes from this
and whose disappointment we'll feel.
but for now we're waiting

flashy

nightcar by Alistair Chong

here comes the night ride
rolling through the streets
a breathing tide
heralded by street lights
and the sounds of cares
cast away and left for tomorrow
if only you were

mapping

sight by Alistair Chong

deeper than i knew
clear as morning air
gets to me every time
they open they close
i close mine
but when they open
i can't stop from searching you
so i stand
with my eyes to the grounds
downcast
because i know
you wouldn't do the same
but there's only hope

desires

you were there by Alistair Chong

here we are
lifting to you
everything
for you i give it up
we are yours
and this is what we say
through these voices
as they reach heavenward
let us know
you are smiling

moor

foot by foot by Alistair Chong

the chill won't get to us
because we're running
into the arms of life
warmth and love and joy
at least that's what they say.
i tripped and i'm clawing
my way back up
but it's hard
harder than you know

nights after one

faith by Alistair Chong

behind the door
and failed light
behind locks
and empty flight
when you're the only one
who sees
you know this cry
in all times i will worship
in all times i will kneel
for surely this God i know
is faithful tot he end
in all His majesty, has unfailing love
for one man and the six billion
others

industries

really by Alistair Chong

how do i tell you this
without regret
without fear
without this feeling?

how do i tell you this
when i don't know the end
when i feel like you're indifferent
when i feel it slipping?

With Me by Sum 41

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everything's nothing without you
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

Through it all,
I made my mistakes
I stumble and fall,
but I mean these words

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go,
These words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know,
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

Thoughts read unspoken, forever in doubt
Pieces of memories fall to the ground
I know what I didn't have so, I won't let this go
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

All the streets
Where I walked alone,
With nowhere to go
I've come to an end

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go,
These words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know,
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

In front of your eyes,
It falls from the skies
When you don't know what you're looking to find
In front of your eyes,
It falls from the skies
When you just never know what you will find

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everything's nothing without you

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go,
These words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know,
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go,
These words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know,
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

opened

chinks by Alistair Chong

you really pull
the words from my mouth
the breath from my chest
its like a blow
i never ready myself for
just watching, i can't
help but feel that feeling
it's different to anything
makes everything
change

going to

please show by Alistair Chong

am i to repeat myself
for days to come
end folding on ends
never tying itself away
what am i supposed to do?

could you

ever? by Alistair Chong

you're slipping
away beyond return
the sinking feeling
back yet again
stays for good.
it seems there's always
something else.
someone.
in truth, i don't really know
but it seems to be so.
we'll see
meanwhile, it hurts

rain rain

shallow waters by Alistair Chong

he's just a kid in the rain
the droplets masking his tears
diluting his pain
drawing from what appears
just a kid in the rain
his footsteps faltering
wants to slip away
from all that's called to him

you look on
in disdain and disgust
you look on
in hate and mistrust
but you don't know
the kid next to you is crying inside
you don't know
the kid next to you is trying to die

she's just a child beneath
her frustration and anger
trying to mask her grief
from those who pretend her
she's swimming downwards
she's lost her way alone
and if she doesn't find love's words
she's going to die soon

you look on
in disdain and disgust
you look on
in hate and mistrust
but you don't know
the kid next to you is crying inside
you don't know
the kid next to you is trying to die

look below
the surface of the ice
see the child
who's been lost in the fight
lift her eyes to your own
and love
love

you look on
in disdain and disgust
you look on
in hate and mistrust
but you don't know
the kid next to you is crying inside
you don't know
the kid next to you is trying to die

choke onwards

inhale by Alistair Chong

these fumes
sear my smell
burn their fuse
to my brains
who wants some
the lights
open they shut
colours change
at least its better
to be like this
than real.

anything

create by Alistair Chong

empty shops
and barred doors
line the street
sidewalks empty too
lit by street lights
longing for light to fall upon life.
it's okay.
we'll make our own fun.

not much

emptying by Alistair Chong

all in all
it's okay
in perspective
we're all ending up somewhere.
any day.

roaring

herald by Alistair Chong

the roar of multitudes
lifts to the skies
wheeling gulls
overhead
rise on the sound
and join in caws
heralding a new era
i'm coming.

east to fall

covers by Alistair Chong

lying here
with nothing left
i feel the tension gone
everything is fine
almost everything
i guess
it's there always looming over me
but for now
i'll take it in my step
roll over
close my eyes
and let the sun do the etalking.

feeling of

one more by Alistair Chong

i'm here again
where i can leave
the tension behind
the fallout is past
i'm amongst those
who are there.
and it's there again.

heaven high

it is by Alistair Chong

it's good to be
with my friends
the ones who make me laugh
the ones i know
would stick to the end
come hell's water or heaven's high
where we'd pull each other out
and cut us down
when we needed to.
oh God it's good.
to be able to smile
and mean it,
because we're all friends.
truly.

see you there

on the other side by Alistair Chong

see you there
where freedom calls
and chains have fallen
where we can walk
without our heads down
bent on the double
and caught under ourselves.
where we can look up
and stop in our tracks
and see the sun
without seeing the shadows it casts.
where we can walk down the street
without seeing where there was an accident
where we can let sounds wash us over
and let ourselves be caught up
in all it is.
where we have crossed the line.

all for

recurrent by Alistair Chong

lying awake
once again
it's not surprising
i don't mind
it's quite nice
to imagine the light bathing the ceiling
coming from heavens door.
through the cracks.
i hear on the fabricated wind
cries of an anthem
a war drums of victory.
i'll be alright.
i know it.

tasting

near by Alistair Chong

nearer, nearer
the birds are coming
flocks of freedom
tie their strings to their hearts
kites of light bursting through
clouds above.

our hearts

eulogy by Alistair Chong

farewell
i never knew you
but you changed my eyes
changed what i saw
by the river we are
touched by you.
see you child,
in a place better than before.
we couldn't love you more
and it hurts
it hurts so bad,
empty but so full of everything.
our child.
a child of the world.
but you're held in loving hands
curled in the palms
of love and glory.
rest, child.
see you in heaven.

rolling road

through the glass by Alistair Chong

empty bus rides
filled with empty windows
i breath my breath
lightly fogs on the glass
and recedes
like hope of an ending war.
i shut my eyes
to the rhythm of the sway
and turning wheels
i see how whole
this world is
how much she needs to be healed
the hurt, struggle.
called upon by prophets
which crowd the skies

so badly

only words by Alistair Chong

i sit
staring at words
reading nothing
hearing voices
listening to nothing
are words
to be heard?
or do you whisper them
threads of finest silk
and fragrance of blood of hearts
as nothing

anthem

strings by Alistair Chong

the voices of hearts
in one
crying out for life
and life for all
keeps me awake at night
calls to my guilt
and draws it slowly from the depths.
stringent and stubborn.
why am i like this?

have you

past paper by Alistair Chong

lit by dim light
of the fading past
i look back on the pages
and see empty pages
where a story could have been written
where stories
could flourish and
words would capture hearts
as they capture the moment.
those moments.
but i didn't

ramble

gift by Alistair Chong

time, and space
must be filled
caught up and taken
present in the past
and to be in the future.
time, and space
we take it for granted
but granted to us it is
from an ever to be.

earth

over ground by Alistair Chong

wilting leaves
have finished their dues
their tribute lays
carpeted on the pavement
their trials decorate the tar
a mosaic of life.
she walks down the avenue

the bench

no other friend by Alistair Chong

clouds deny the light
fountains splash in empty hope
a man sits alone on the bench.
hunched over
feeding the pigeon
bits of bread
falling at his feet
with no more purpose.
listless.