pulse.


"Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it, like my heart is just going to cave in."
-Ricky Fitts, American Beauty

28.2.09

rebuild

i need you to by Alistair Chong

please,
i beg the dawn
that you'd find my arms
please,
i'm crying torn
don't shatter this love

please,
don't let this be
don't leave me wild
please,
not so easily
only you can hold this child

you've built all of this
fragile piece by piece
and it's broken down at the end
but i beg you, build it again

build me again.

27.2.09

sleepless

searching for beauty in pain by Alistair Chong

suddenly i can't sleep
every piece i've placed
feels like it's shattered
and it never hurt so much
everything's not where it's supposed to be
and it won't stop crashing down on me
and i need to cry
but i don't know how
and i need to hold you

26.2.09

don't know

i don't get it by Alistair Chong

just a boy lost at sea
not knowing where the land is
and i can't do anything
what did i do
why am i here
did i swim the wrong way?
i'm scared.

25.2.09

where are

don't understand by Alistair Chong

today
the sky is a different shade
the night seems to fade
and i don't know why
the sun is harsher now
something different about
the way it is.
and it hurts a bit

24.2.09

how come

colour association by Alistair Chong

blue
a darker shade of blue
sweeping through the moon lit sky
holding the dawn away
praying for no more days
where i'll have to wake up
again

23.2.09

like the past

okay then by Alistair Chong

heat bring me to sleep
seal my eyes once more
let them roll back into
a field of dreams and fantasy's shore
let this burning inside me
find a way to end
this churning colliding
they shouldn't be kept

22.2.09

describe a feeling

waiting by Alistair Chong

in the dark
waiting
listening to the air
creeping in, heat is gone
in the dark
playing
with the notion that
i messed up somewhere along
in the dark
praying
that this is enough
every part of my love

21.2.09

drained

classes by Alistair Chong

this is draining me
everything sliding down the drain
the plug's been pulled
can't take it back
won't stop
or slow down

20.2.09

clouds on

feel okay by Alistair Chong

once again you are here
to make me feel
like everything's alright
i listen to your voice
and i know i'll sleep tonight
because you are here

19.2.09

hearts are for

memory i search by Alistair Chong

four days behind
forgetting what's arrived
a mental block
stemming the flow
damming up what i feel
from what i know

18.2.09

nap taste

escaping sunlight by Alistair Chong

sleep in the day
let the sunlight escape
the prison of my eyes
sleep when it's light
the night time of the night
with the moon around the world

17.2.09

underneath

will you be there for me by Alistair Chong

these words you say
can you even hear
they just frustrate
pointless and unclear
everything piles up
feels like i'm breaking down
packing in the heat
i don't want to drown

16.2.09

a hum in the dark

constricting by Alistair Chong

tiresome
this sleep i find
a trinket in this game
of hide and seek
finding
nothing but
a churning heart
creeping through my sleep

15.2.09

going

away by Alistair Chong

you're leaving on a train
going away
but i can't pretend
that i'm alright
lonely nights and
a head of sinking sand
but i think of you
and it helps me close my eyes