i need you to by Alistair Chong
please,
i beg the dawn
that you'd find my arms
please,
i'm crying torn
don't shatter this love
please,
don't let this be
don't leave me wild
please,
not so easily
only you can hold this child
you've built all of this
fragile piece by piece
and it's broken down at the end
but i beg you, build it again
build me again.
pulse.
-Ricky Fitts, American Beauty
28.2.09
rebuild
27.2.09
sleepless
searching for beauty in pain by Alistair Chong
suddenly i can't sleep
every piece i've placed
feels like it's shattered
and it never hurt so much
everything's not where it's supposed to be
and it won't stop crashing down on me
and i need to cry
but i don't know how
and i need to hold you
26.2.09
don't know
i don't get it by Alistair Chong
just a boy lost at sea
not knowing where the land is
and i can't do anything
what did i do
why am i here
did i swim the wrong way?
i'm scared.
25.2.09
where are
don't understand by Alistair Chong
today
the sky is a different shade
the night seems to fade
and i don't know why
the sun is harsher now
something different about
the way it is.
and it hurts a bit
24.2.09
how come
colour association by Alistair Chong
blue
a darker shade of blue
sweeping through the moon lit sky
holding the dawn away
praying for no more days
where i'll have to wake up
again
23.2.09
like the past
okay then by Alistair Chong
heat bring me to sleep
seal my eyes once more
let them roll back into
a field of dreams and fantasy's shore
let this burning inside me
find a way to end
this churning colliding
they shouldn't be kept
22.2.09
describe a feeling
waiting by Alistair Chong
in the dark
waiting
listening to the air
creeping in, heat is gone
in the dark
playing
with the notion that
i messed up somewhere along
in the dark
praying
that this is enough
every part of my love
21.2.09
drained
classes by Alistair Chong
this is draining me
everything sliding down the drain
the plug's been pulled
can't take it back
won't stop
or slow down
20.2.09
clouds on
feel okay by Alistair Chong
once again you are here
to make me feel
like everything's alright
i listen to your voice
and i know i'll sleep tonight
because you are here
19.2.09
hearts are for
memory i search by Alistair Chong
four days behind
forgetting what's arrived
a mental block
stemming the flow
damming up what i feel
from what i know
18.2.09
nap taste
escaping sunlight by Alistair Chong
sleep in the day
let the sunlight escape
the prison of my eyes
sleep when it's light
the night time of the night
with the moon around the world
17.2.09
underneath
will you be there for me by Alistair Chong
these words you say
can you even hear
they just frustrate
pointless and unclear
everything piles up
feels like i'm breaking down
packing in the heat
i don't want to drown
16.2.09
a hum in the dark
constricting by Alistair Chong
tiresome
this sleep i find
a trinket in this game
of hide and seek
finding
nothing but
a churning heart
creeping through my sleep
15.2.09
going
away by Alistair Chong
you're leaving on a train
going away
but i can't pretend
that i'm alright
lonely nights and
a head of sinking sand
but i think of you
and it helps me close my eyes